Last night at Bible Study we looked at the Discipline of Prayer and Meditation. You told the story about John Wesley at the monastery spending so much time in the confessional. He said that he could not, for 5 minutes, keep the Great Commandment. I know that you tell the story to let us know that it is a real effort and a true discipline to be true to God but I find myself thinking that if even J.W. couldn't put God first for 5 minutes, what hope is there for me?
I know that I am selfish, and prideful and judgemental and every night I think about that and pray about it and then God gives me another chance to get it right the next day and then I screw up again and the next day I try again and God forgives me and I ask him to help me do better and be better and then I mess up ...etc. ....I'm a slow learner but I have hope!
But John Wesley! It makes me discouraged to think of that.
I know that I am selfish, and prideful and judgemental and every night I think about that and pray about it and then God gives me another chance to get it right the next day and then I screw up again and the next day I try again and God forgives me and I ask him to help me do better and be better and then I mess up ...etc. ....I'm a slow learner but I have hope!
But John Wesley! It makes me discouraged to think of that.
PS ~ I've read Mother Theresa's biography and she started out as an unremarkable, unmemorable student. She is my inspiration...please don't tell any "bad" stories on her... ☺
